Crucible of Pain

Crucible: “1. A vessel made of a refractory substance, as porcelain or graphite, and used for melting and calcining materials at high temperatures. 2. The bottom of an ore furnace, in which the molten metal collects. 3. A severe trial.”

Calcine: “To heat (a substance) to a high temperature but below the melting or fusing point, causing loss of moisture , reduction, or oxidation.” ~Webster’s II New College Dictionary; Copyright 2001, 1999, 1995 by Houghton Mifflin Company

Revelation 11:1-9

And there was given me a reed like unto a rod: and the angel stood, saying, Rise, and measure the temple of God, and the altar, and them that worship therein.

2 But the court which is without the temple leave out, and measure it not; for it is given unto the Gentiles: and the holy city shall they tread under foot forty and two months.

3 And I will give power unto my two witnesses, and they shall prophesy a thousand two hundred and threescore days, clothed in sackcloth.

4 These are the two olive trees, and the two candlesticks standing before the God of the earth.

5 And if any man will hurt them, fire proceedeth out of their mouth, and devoureth their enemies: and if any man will hurt them, he must in this manner be killed.

6 These have power to shut heaven, that it rain not in the days of their prophecy: and have power over waters to turn them to blood, and to smite the earth with all plagues, as often as they will.

7 And when they shall have finished their testimony, the beast that ascendeth out of the bottomless pit shall make war against them, and shall overcome them, and kill them.

8 And their dead bodies shall lie in the street of the great city, which spiritually is called Sodom and Egypt, where also our Lord was crucified.

9 And they of the people and kindreds and tongues and nations shall see their dead bodies three days and an half, and shall not suffer their dead bodies to be put in graves.

Revelation 21

And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea.

2 And I John saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband.

3 And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God.

4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

5 And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

6 And he said unto me, It is done. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely.

7 He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son.

8 But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.

9 And there came unto me one of the seven angels which had the seven vials full of the seven last plagues, and talked with me, saying, Come hither, I will shew thee the bride, the Lamb’s wife.

10 And he carried me away in the spirit to a great and high mountain, and shewed me that great city, the holy Jerusalem, descending out of heaven from God,

11 Having the glory of God: and her light was like unto a stone most precious, even like a jasper stone, clear as crystal;

12 And had a wall great and high, and had twelve gates, and at the gates twelve angels, and names written thereon, which are the names of the twelve tribes of the children of Israel:

13 On the east three gates; on the north three gates; on the south three gates; and on the west three gates.

14 And the wall of the city had twelve foundations, and in them the names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb.

15 And he that talked with me had a golden reed to measure the city, and the gates thereof, and the wall thereof.

16 And the city lieth foursquare, and the length is as large as the breadth: and he measured the city with the reed, twelve thousand furlongs. The length and the breadth and the height of it are equal.

17 And he measured the wall thereof, an hundred and forty and four cubits, according to the measure of a man, that is, of the angel.

18 And the building of the wall of it was of jasper: and the city was pure gold, like unto clear glass.

19 And the foundations of the wall of the city were garnished with all manner of precious stones. The first foundation was jasper; the second, sapphire; the third, a chalcedony; the fourth, an emerald;

20 The fifth, sardonyx; the sixth, sardius; the seventh, chrysolyte; the eighth, beryl; the ninth, a topaz; the tenth, a chrysoprasus; the eleventh, a jacinth; the twelfth, an amethyst.

21 And the twelve gates were twelve pearls: every several gate was of one pearl: and the street of the city was pure gold, as it were transparent glass.

22 And I saw no temple therein: for the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are the temple of it.

23 And the city had no need of the sun, neither of the moon, to shine in it: for the glory of God did lighten it, and the Lamb is the light thereof.

24 And the nations of them which are saved shall walk in the light of it: and the kings of the earth do bring their glory and honour into it.

25 And the gates of it shall not be shut at all by day: for there shall be no night there.

26 And they shall bring the glory and honour of the nations into it.

27 And there shall in no wise enter into it any thing that defileth, neither whatsoever worketh abomination, or maketh a lie: but they which are written in the Lamb’s book of life.

In my youth, I would take the crucible’s bread and wine

Being broken taking the pain within the soul

crying in innocent misunderstanding


In my jubilee, I couldn’t take the suffering’s significance sometimes

Otherwise, my insanity would have become reality

because betrayal is that way


Today, and only just now, I see He and me in a congregation Love

We walk down the middle aisle and then stand there

our eyes meet in perfecting pain


That is when I give over to the place that  His pain makes Way

Where love and hate abide liberally free crushing us

but you can’t write it


There is a certain 30 minutes of silence therein of mystery

That takes my breath away with beautiful jewels

of refinement foundation-ally


We share the wine and the bread there raptly knowing

And it is Our Own Free Will Set Free sweetly

to praise in the pain forever


There is duty; there is sacrifice; there is love grown cold too

This is when suffering of hate does its work of pain

to hotly refine love perfectly


I keep living the true realities in the spirit flesh afraid for me

Because I am lost then found over again there

and nonetheless; grace abounds


This last bit of the Bible is not prayer. It is best defined in video by Michael Jackson, honestly. He made a video, and here it is to help us see, in real life across thousands of years, that the Bible is true. That pain produces Jesus in the flesh life AS HE IS the Thief, the Husband Lamb, and the Lion of the Tribe of Judah.

If I didn’t post a human’s video, it would lack respect for all of the suffering, all of it, which humankind either knowingly in love with I AM or not gives glory to God with. I do not lack respect of humankind’s suffering.

I have a problem, honestly, with humankind of my existence lacking respect for my suffering. They were and are Christians. I am nothing until I’m something. And I am a turtledove who has been cheaply sacrificed so many times across a 50 year life, me and my compatriots in this paragraph, that it is sad to me how I have to point it out. For of a truth, so many of them whom betrayed me and mine forgot the deepest truths of I AM’s pain. I never knew, in 2013, that when in all caps I typed I AM WEEPING it was true; it was HE; that MAN who needed me. amen.

Michael Jackson’s Earth Song

I just found out, 8:00 AM Central Time, that my publisher Tate Publishing is in a very great amount of pain. Dr. Tate and his family are so golden, so righteous. I rebuke those taking this dear family to court in Jesus Name, amen. I was going to link my third volume of testimony to show the world how I AM is WEEPING as written in print in that book all glory to God. But Tate Publishing is just as destroyed as I am for this testimony on this website to be here. I will wait patiently in the pain with my Loves Tate Publishing.

Please, oh Christian Church, do what you can for this dear family and their lovely business. Donate to pay bills. Help them. A Letter about Tate Publishing closing its doors. Do you clearly now see my compatriots? No? If you do not, you will never see the Lord on this earth. Die already please. Thank you.

Revelation 8:1-6

And when he had opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven about the space of half an hour.

2 And I saw the seven angels which stood before God; and to them were given seven trumpets.

3 And another angel came and stood at the altar, having a golden censer; and there was given unto him much incense, that he should offer it with the prayers of all saints upon the golden altar which was before the throne.

4 And the smoke of the incense, which came with the prayers of the saints, ascended up before God out of the angel’s hand.

5 And the angel took the censer, and filled it with fire of the altar, and cast it into the earth: and there were voices, and thunderings, and lightnings, and an earthquake.

6 And the seven angels which had the seven trumpets prepared themselves to sound.

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